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I Made NACHOS 😋😋 delliccioussss!! Especially when you add lots of mozzarella😘🧀 and I used sweet potato chips 🍠🍟 which were amazing 😉 Beating that cheese fear every chance I get👊🏼Challenging yourself regularly is essential in recovery because you don't want to keep this rigidity around food!! Chinese was so fun today and I love to practice writing out the characters, it's such a fascinating language. Church was also lovely to as well. I hope everybody is having a wonderful weekend ❤️️❤️️

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I haven't posted on this in two days but that's a good thing because I've been taking time to do the things that makes me happy. Seeing close friends, going on walks, doing yoga and enjoying the sunshine. Something I learnt this week from my doctor was to schedule the things you like in your week before you feel shitty. That way you can hopefully reduce bad days and feeling low by keeping your soul happy before it gets sad! Have a good weekend everyone! ✌🏼️✨💛 #yoga  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #depression  #anxiety  #positivevibes  #positivity  #neda  #ahimsa 

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"Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is… Crazy isn’t being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It’s you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever. They were not perfect, but they were my friends"- Girl Interrupted . . . . . . . . . . . . . #eatingdisorderfighter  #eatingrecoverycenter  #eatingdisorderfight  #nedawareness  #edfighter  #nedawareness  #neda  #eatingdisorderfight  #eatingrecoverycenter  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #sunset  #sunset 🌅 #chasingsunsets  #alldayeveryday  #photogram  #photography  #sky  #skyporn  #bliss  #beauty  #bliss 😇 #colorful  #beautiful  #seattle  #pnw  #pacificnorthwest  #206  #425 

- dinner after FOUR hours of volleyball. This was my first time trying zucchini noodles and they're SO GOOD !!! So today I visited a friend at the EDU, this is her second time there but she's been to a lot of other places. This time is her last chance to recover because if not she'll have to stay at an adult center since she turns 18 soon. She's so beautiful and strong and I really hope she can do this. I love her so much and I truly believe this time she can do this!! She said I inspired her which made me feel really really happy. Hope everything works out! - - - #ed  #edrecovery  #edfamilly  #bodypositivity  #screwthescale  #fuckthescale  #ana  #neda  #nedawareness  #edawareness  #eating  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edwarrior  #ednos  #anorexia  #eatingdisorder 

My dad made me have so much for lunch!!!! A falafel sandwich with spinach and tomato, this quinoa thing I bought yesterday (and got in trouble for) and two pork and watercress dumplings. And he just kept going on about how impatient he is for me to gain weight. TW it came to about 800 cake which is wayyyy more than I would usually have for lunch. And now my plan to have a quest bar this afternoon as a snack is ruined cause I can't have that much. And I'll also not be able to eat much tonight and I'm with friends but whatever, I'd prefer to eat not much and have them think it's a bit weird than eat heaps!! All the parts to lunch were really good tho.

Depression is a big smile and a forced laugh, desperately trying to distract you from the absolute despair in my eyes. Depression is saying "I'm sick" or "I'm busy" when I'm actually crumpled up into a ball hiding under the covers in bed, unable to move, unable to break away from the numbness. Depression is eating and eating and eating - trying to comfort the sadness and fulfill the emptiness, and other times, it is not being able to take a bite. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Depression is an escape - it makes me feel safe. But is it safe? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Depression is treatable, but not curable. So, no, "just getting some exercise" or "just eating better" or "just taking a mental health day" will not make it magically disappear. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ And though it feels "safe" to sit in depression for a little while, it is very isolating. Depression is not living. Depression is not sadness, which is a basic human emotion. Depression is a mental illness. Depression kills. And it's time we start hearing and validating and helping those struggling. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It is so easy to assume and come to the conclusion, "oh, they'll reach out if they want help". No, if you want to help, sometimes you have to go to them. Because depression tells us to isolate. Depression tells us that you don't give a shit. Depression tells us we are worthless. Prove the illness wrong. Show up and support us when we are struggling. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Many of us don't expect you to save our lives. And in my opinion, it's unfair to ask a friend or family member for that type of help. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Interestingly enough though, just saying, "Hey, how are you?", or showing interest in our lives, could very well save a life.

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Went out for lunch today and had a toasted veggie wrap 🌯 with some salad 🥗 - Woke up with a bit of motivation this morning to fight this horrible illness despite my horrible body image. I don't want to be in my 20's worrying about calories when I should be going out and partying (with maybe a drink or two 😏). Went to one of my favourite cafes with mum and ordered what I wanted! Not anorexia, not anyone else but me. I picked up half the wrap and despite noticing the oil from the cheese and pesto dripping out I munched away. Even dipping it into the chutney which anorexia hates as she finds it "unnecessary". The only thing that's unnecessary is you in the back of my mind telling me nonsense about what I'm eating. Talked through the guilt with mum and then went op-shopping. Today was a day I can tick off as having a challenge and for once I'm proud to say that 😊 Have a great day lovelies 💓

Got a new swimsuit and I loooove how it looks 💖 BTW guys if you post an unretouched swimsuit pic and tag #aeriereal  they donate money to #neda  which will go towards research for eating disorders!!! So go do it right now!!! . . . . . . . . . #weightloss  #weightwatchers  #weightlossjourney  #weightlossmotivation  #weightlosstransformation  #fit  #fitgirl  #fitspo  #fitness  #fitgirls  #fitnessmotivation  #fitnessinspiration  #fitnessjourney  #girlswholift  #girlswhosquat  #healthyfood  #healthyeating  #healthylifestyle  #gabbygains  #gabbysgirls  #igfit  #instafit  #igfitness  #igfitspo  #igfitfam 

Find your power pose • tonight, I was playing around with dance as a fun form of movement; as one not to abuse my body, but to honor my body. When I am dancing (not according to any specific form), I feel powerful and genuinely happy. The smile is real and it is a strong reminder that exercise should not be a punishment, but a celebration of all that your body can do.

Creamy vanilla and cinnamon porridge with maple syrup 🍁 mhhh so delicious 😋😋It's Saturday today yes! Hoping everyone is having a lovely day ❤️❤️

I'm actually disgusting. This is not the way to prep for a 10km race tomorrow. Ughhhh I'm a disaster and tired and triggered and done . #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #anorexia  #bulimia  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #edwarrior  #recovery  #neda  #edsoldier  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #adultswitheds  #eatingdisorder  #socialanxiety  #edfighter  #ednos  #adultswithed  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #fightingED  #anxiety  #depression  #ptsd  #mentalhealth  #stigma  #stopthestigma  #mentalillness 

Breakfast was the same as yesterday- a spicy fruit English muffin with jam and two weetbix with almond milk. Am not happy because I was planning on having a higher cal breakfast of porridge with coconut milk, a banana and almond butternut mum said we had to stick to what the psychologist said of having 'toast' with breakfast too. I literally don't understand I was suggesting having MORE for breakfast but she didn't let me. I also got in trouble for buying some quinoa thing to eat because it's "not normal". Like a "normal" diet leads to obesity it's been proven and quinoa is high in protein and minerals and has the same cal content- why wouldn't I be allowed to have it. I find it difficult to trust my mum when it comes to nutrition because she doesn't know what she is talking about most of the time.

In my house, we've been improvising for dinner lately, kinda a catch-all style. This is particularly tough for me but working on flexibility! • siggi's with granola, raspberries, and pb

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lunch out w/ friends @ panera !! first meal without my parents in a long time, but it went really well😋 I also bought 2 cookies & surprised my mom at work - feeling good today🌸

Pay attention to all of life's little gifts and enjoy them. Happy Friday!

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Lunch earlier was at one of my favorite diners here at home! • chocolate milkshake, toast, potatoes, and an omelet with broccoli, spinach, and cheese

5.26.2017 | 🚗 Currently driving up to NorCal but this time when I got hungry for lunch I stopped instead of restricting the whole drive up. #recoverywin  🤗 Usually I just snack and ignore my hunger cues. Today I followed my meal plan! Good job at me 👏🏾 #maketodaygreat  . 👉🏾My sandwich was: oven roasted chicken 6' on honey oat bread with provolone, lettuce, tomatoes, onions, mayo, honey mustard, and sweet onion sauce. Yummy! 😋

Today marks my discharge from 2 months of tumultuous eating disorder treatment after many years of struggle. To the incredible staff and the girls I met behind this door, thank you for opening your souls to me. To my selfless sister and parents, thank you for the endless patience and support. For anyone who's ever felt that not eating might successfully pause the inevitable progression of a life too vast, demanding and full of decisions, you're not alone. But when you're struggling, it's not the time to stay quiet. Speak up and fill the room. Yes it's in all your head, so get it the hell out of there!! #neda  #recovery 

before photos are toxic and kept me in my eating disorder for so long. I would troll around recovery blogs, etc looking at other people's before photos wondering (warning !!! fucked up ED thoughts) why I wasn't as good as them. wishing I could look as frighteningly ill as those people kept me from seeing how frighteningly ill I already was. so today I'm boycotting the before and just showing my "during" pic in hopes that one day I'll be fully recovered and have an honest to god after pic. ... I took this photo just over a month ago on my first day of work. I was so happy that day. I had just eaten a satisfying lunch and was ready to face the day. it was probably the first time I had a glimpse of what life might look like without my eating disorder since leaving treatment several months earlier. that's what matters and that's what i'm trying to showcase by posting this. fuck the before I want to celebrate the today. ... another reason before pics are so harmful is because they're completely invalidating to the vast majority of ED sufferers who don't look like the ill, emaciated, white teenage girl people think of when they hear "eating disorder." its the reason so many ED sufferers have heard the dreaded words: oh you don't look like you have an eating disorder. and its the reason a terrifying number of people don't get help when they so desperately need it. fuck "sick enough". ED sufferers are all shapes, weights, races, genders, ages, and economic classes. #bopowarrior  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #bodypositivity  #boycottthebefore  #iamnotmyillness  #recoverywarrior  #recoverywin  #onedayatatime  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimiarecovery  #ednosrecovery  #bedrecovery  #neda 

Saw this on @nedamonth and felt compelled to repost it, for so long I've stayed silent about topics like this but fuck it, why should I be ashamed!👌🏽 I wish more people realised how true this is, I remember as a teenager restricting my food intake and only allowing myself between 200-800 calories a day depending on the day of the week and when I did binge or 'over eat' rushing to the bathroom so I could force myself to be sick, I lost nearly 4 stone doing this but because I was still deemed as overweight no one asked me if I was ok or encouraged me to seek any professional help, in fact my weight loss was praised, I had people telling me how much better I looked even though the reality was that my mental health was in a disastrous condition, for so long I struggled with this by myself too scared to ask for help because I thought no one would believe the 'fat girl' made herself sick multiple times a day. now I struggle at the opposite end of the spectrum with binge/emotional eating. My past makes me scared to do any 'diet' plans that extremely restrictive. My point is don't judge people on their weight alone, health is more than a BMI. Think before you start talking about the diet your on, or how much weight you need to lose, you might be talking to someone who is recovering from the exact bullshit your promoting. Mental health problems are serious and life threatening, you never know what someone is going through or been through! don't judge people until you've walked in their shoes✌🏽☮️🌈💕 #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #selflove  #radicalselflove  #selfcare  #eatingdisorderawareness  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #depression  #anxiety  #fuckdietculture  #bodypositive  #bodypositivity  #loveyourself  #loveyourbody  #love  #humanity  #nowrongway  #mybodyisabikinibody  #dietculturedropout  #neda  #bopo  #bopowarrior 

A pocas horas de empezar el tour de belleza, animaros aún estáis a tiempo estaremos de 11 a 21 en el hotel husa odeon, MAÑANA SÁBADO, habrá dos talleres uno a las 12 y otro a las 18 horas, hay que apuntarse y quedan pocas plazas 🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏻🏃🏼‍♀️os esperamos encantad@s de recibiros allí con los brazos abiertos para mimar vuestra piel, momento de desconexión #ferrol  #ferrolcentro  #ferrolterra  #ferroliño  #ferrolmola  #fene  #aspontes  #sillobre  #valdoviño  #mugardos  #pontedeume  #miño  #maniños  #doniños  #cobas  #cabanas  #ares  #neda  #meirás  #narón  #oinferniño  #lago  #santacecilia  #barriodamagdalena  #pantin 

I'm a pretty private person, and talking about myself is not really something I enjoy doing... However, when I was approached to do an interview for @fromthecouchof_ , I was inspired by her story enough to share my own. It was a pleasure (even if it was outside of my comfort zone) to have coffee w/ Tess and help provide some insight into my Fitness Journey. I highly recommend giving her a follow. She is pretty great. --And she has a Doodle too! Humbled and honored to be featured as her first "Couch Chat" 😌. #BeMoreHuman  #BeBoyle  #DoWhatMovesYou  #CrossFit  #Fitness  #Journey  #Life  @CrossFit @8thdaygym #Repost  @fromthecouchof_ ・・・ “Where everything in life is structured and controlled I want to be free, and if I want ice cream, well, I have it”. Thrilled to be launching the first of many “Couch Chat” interviews on the blog today. Lindsey is an incredible woman and I know y’all will love her as well. Link in bio. #crossfit  #grcrossfit  #8thdaygym  #Fromthecouchof_  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #Neda  #edawareness 

The past couple of weeks have been extraordinarily busy and I have not been managing my anxiety well. 😕 I constantly feel like I'm behind and at times want to crawl under the covers and watch Disney movies all day. I've always been very good at hiding it, but this is me owning up to the struggle I've been feeling lately. . I used control my anxiety with food and exercise....Learning how to actually deal with my feelings when times get tough is scary AF. 😳 . So here's to owning my reality. Today I woke up early, got my butt to a hot yoga class, and made a big jug o juice. I'm committed to honoring my feelings today instead of eating/not eating them, and to gently cross things off of my to-do list. 😊. Happy #feelgoodfriday  ❤️🙌🏼

Happy 🍟yay!! I love this quote for #fiercefriday . When I had my ED, I completely lost my voice. Which is weird for me, because anyone who knows me well knows that I am one to speak my mind, be real, and have an opinion. But when I was sick, my ED sucked that voice right out of me. I was a shell, not only on the outside but on the inside. My ED became my voice because it said everything I needed to say without me saying anything at all. It fought all my battles for me. It numbed me so that I didn't really care about anything. I lost myself, that normally vibrant, sassy, fierce Emma that I always knew and was. And in recovery I gained that Emma back in an even more improved way. With my ED, I was an echo. An echo of things I wanted to say but wouldn't let myself. An echo of who I really was. But an #echo  is no way to live. Find your #voice . That's truly living.

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Strategically posed and lightly retouched vs Just me naturally ••••••••••••••••••••••••• What if I told you that there's only 5 minutes between these pictures? ••••••••••••••••••••••••• What if I told you that I prefer the second one? Would you believe me? ••••••••••••••••••••••••• Probably not right? Because why would anyone like the photo that is less flattering? ••••••••••••••••••••••••• And well to be completely honest you'd be right not to believe me right now ••••••••••••••••••••••••• Where I am mentally is keeping me from seeing my body as beautiful the way it naturally is but I'll never stop trying ••••••••••••••••••••••••• Self love is hard. Recovery is hard. Reprogramming your brain is hard. But all of it is so so worth it ••••••••••••••••••••••••• You are worthy of recovery You are worthy of love You are worthy of respect You are worth every bit of it ❤️ ••••••••••••••••••••••••• You are worth everything exactly the way you are. Don't believe everything you see in the media. 💗 #mentalillnessawareness  #neda  #nofilter  #nowrongway  #recovery  #recoverywin  #recoveryisworthit  #recover  #selfcare  #selflove  #support  #twloha  #youwillbeok  #youareworthit 

5.26.2017 | Morning Lovelies! So I didn't get a chance to post yesterday because yesterday was a weird day. It was rough but at the end of the day I managed to get a lot done! I'm going up to the Bay Area today to visit my family and celebrate my godmother's 104th Birthday!! 😲 So I'm pretty much running around this morning getting chores done and packing. But, taking care of myself also means that I need to stop and have breakfast right?? So I picked what I wanted to eat and am having @kodiakcakes pancakes for breakfast ☺️🥞 Favorite!!! . I'll post a little later today about how I'm trying to tackle my meal plan and my recovery plan while I'm away this weekend. This is my first trip (mini trip at that) that I'm going on since being in treatment and ed recovery. . And as @dothehotpants said yesterday, Make today an amazing day! You have the power to 😘

Cheesy veggie omelette + toast & cantaloupe 👌 Last night I was visiting my grandma, and she asked me if it was okay that she was wearing shorts, because she was worried other people would see the veins in her legs. My point being? She's an eighty something year old, BEAUTIFUL woman and she is STILL self conscious about her looks. My (extremely hypocritical) initial reaction was thinking "Oh my gosh, no one cares what your legs look like, they love YOU. Wear the dang shorts and focus on the things in life that actually matter!" ... I realize now I really need to take my own advice. Weight restoration may be uncomfortable, and I may be insecure, but life is way to precious to spend focused on the superficial. We need to embrace and appreciate the individual ways God created us and move forward with life... I just wish it wasn't so hard to accept 🙄

Dessert of broken digestives and tea with almond milk 😻😻 ready for the weekend kind of?

This is a little different to my usual posts but I wanted to discuss something. How many young girls pride themselves on their hair? Majority do. This is what an eating disorder does to you. This was from running my hand through my hair ONCE. This doesn't include the mass amounts that ran down the drain of the shower or that came out in my brush, just ONE hand. Eating disorders aren't beautiful, you lose hair, your skin becomes dry EVERYWHERE and everything you pride yourself on is destroyed. If you have the chance to choose Recovery, do it. It doesn't matter if you've been struggling for days, weeks, months or years. It's never to late and it's certainly never too early. You can do it because you're beautiful and you are worth it ❤️ #anorexia  #bulimia  #anarecovery  #edsoldier  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #adultswitheds  #eatingdisorder  #socialanxiety  #edfighter  #neda  #fightinged  #depression  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #realrecovery  #ptsd  #stopthestigma  #stigma  #recovering  #edfamily  #edfam  #edcommunity  #recoverywin  #fuckana  #ana  #anorexianervosa  #fuckanorexia 

Breakfast was porridge (made with water 💦 and milk 🍼😏) and a jammy crumpet 😋 heading down to Skegness today to see my grandparents so today will be a long day of traveling 🤦🏻‍♀️but it'll be worth it 🤗 enjoy your day and enjoy the sunshine ☀️ #anorexia  #bulimia  #anarecovery  #edsoldier  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #adultswitheds  #eatingdisorder  #socialanxiety  #edfighter  #neda  #fightinged  #depression  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #realrecovery  #ptsd  #stopthestigma  #stigma  #recovering  #edfamily  #edfam  #edcommunity  #recoverywin  #fuckana  #ana  #anorexianervosa  #fuckanorexia